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[Locked from Jack]
Jun. 4th, 2010 02:00 am[Error: unknown template qotd]
My god, is this a loaded question. More later, when I am actually functional enough to answer it.
EDIT: Okay, there are so many different things that I have to say about this, but the first of all being that I've given this kind of question a lot of thought in the past. I think that it's fairly obvious who I was thinking about when I thought it, so I won't beat around the bush. I don't know if that many of you know this, but. I don't know that much about Jack. I don't think anyone really knows that much about Jack, the Doctor included. He isn't much on sharing, and after living as long as he has (because yes, you all know about the immortality thing, so I won't lie to you about that either), he has a lot of history to know.
And well, before that used to bother me. I used to think to myself "Why don't I know anything about him? Why doesn't he share these things with me?" Because, I mean, for all the stories and other anecdotes that he's shared in the years that I've known him, and what all the files in the archives say about him, I never know how much of it is a lie, fabricated to help him fit in better to our world. I don't know his birthday, I don't know how old he was when he was turned immortal, I don't know how old he is now (and I don't really think that he knows that either), hell, I don't even know his real name.
But. I've come to understand that none of that really matters, anymore. I mean, yes, it still kind of does, because I really do wish I knew who he was, but that's not who he is now. He tells me that he's changed since then, and judging by hw much I've changed in only a few years, I can definitely believe him on that. So. I think it's less avoiding the possibility of getting hurt by not wanting to know everything about him, but more I rather understand that I don't have to know everything to make me happy. Because. I'm starting to understand that that's what he makes me. Happy. And. That's new and, well. Pretty nice.
And that's enough from me, I've probably dug myself enough of a hole as it is.
My god, is this a loaded question. More later, when I am actually functional enough to answer it.
EDIT: Okay, there are so many different things that I have to say about this, but the first of all being that I've given this kind of question a lot of thought in the past. I think that it's fairly obvious who I was thinking about when I thought it, so I won't beat around the bush. I don't know if that many of you know this, but. I don't know that much about Jack. I don't think anyone really knows that much about Jack, the Doctor included. He isn't much on sharing, and after living as long as he has (because yes, you all know about the immortality thing, so I won't lie to you about that either), he has a lot of history to know.
And well, before that used to bother me. I used to think to myself "Why don't I know anything about him? Why doesn't he share these things with me?" Because, I mean, for all the stories and other anecdotes that he's shared in the years that I've known him, and what all the files in the archives say about him, I never know how much of it is a lie, fabricated to help him fit in better to our world. I don't know his birthday, I don't know how old he was when he was turned immortal, I don't know how old he is now (and I don't really think that he knows that either), hell, I don't even know his real name.
But. I've come to understand that none of that really matters, anymore. I mean, yes, it still kind of does, because I really do wish I knew who he was, but that's not who he is now. He tells me that he's changed since then, and judging by hw much I've changed in only a few years, I can definitely believe him on that. So. I think it's less avoiding the possibility of getting hurt by not wanting to know everything about him, but more I rather understand that I don't have to know everything to make me happy. Because. I'm starting to understand that that's what he makes me. Happy. And. That's new and, well. Pretty nice.
And that's enough from me, I've probably dug myself enough of a hole as it is.
