Ianto shuddered as Sulu's arms wrapped around him. He hadn't wanted the other man to know, had kept him in the dark because he wanted to protect him, keep him from everything that was going on in hopes that he could just fix it, that he could just get better, and then he wouldn't have to worry Sulu. But...it was looking more and more like that was not going to be the case. Especially now that Sulu knew. And. It was horrible that Sulu knew, it was, because now he knew that he'd been keeping everything from him, he was going to find how much he'd been keeping, but at the same time... He was so glad to finally have the other man know, finally be able to just let go, for once.

He sucked in a shaky breath, reaching up to bunch his fingers in Sulu's shirt, tucking his head forward against Sulu's shoulder. And in his moment of weakness, he did the bravest thing he could possibly think of. "I... I can't do this anymore," he said, brokenly. "I thought it would be okay. I thought I could...but I was wrong. I was wrong, and I..." He shuddered again in Sulu's arms. "I need...I need your help. Because I...I really can't do any of this alone anymore. I..." A few tears managed to escape his eyes, and his voice cracked, because oh, he just wanted everything to be alright again. "I'm not better at all. I haven't been for a while, now..."