Sulu chuckled a little at that, shaking his head slightly. "No, you're right. I will get over this, I know I will. But... I just." He finally brought his eyes to Ianto's, knowing that the space in his chest was leaving a look in his eyes that he wouldn't be able to hide. "I don't ever want to have to go through that again. I don't want to lose you again. I care way too much about you for that to happen again."

He wanted to tell Ianto just how much he cared about him, and he wanted to tell him that for those nine days, the universe had all but disappeared around him. But it wouldn't do anyone any good, so he kept it to himself, taking the time it would have taken to say all that to instead wrap his arms around Ianto hand hug him close.